Wednesday, June 6, 2018
Goodness and Mercy
Today is a big day for me. On this day two years ago, I had been sick for six years, and my body had begun rejecting all treatments. I was miserable, hopeless, and desperate to find a doctor who could help. With the help of a friend, I scheduled an appointment with a new specialist for this day, June 6th.
In the days leading up to the appointment, I felt God’s still small voice say, “You're fighting so frantically to get healthy that you’re not giving Me a chance to help you. Rest, and let Me fight for you.”
I considered the voice before deciding to proceed with the appointment, determined to do whatever it took to find relief.
And then, my friend and ride to the out-of-town appointment fell ill with the stomach flu, and I knew God had used the stomach bug to keep me from going to the specialist because he had something else in mind for me.
That day, I was struck by Psalm 23:6: "Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life.”
I have always had a tendency to chase goodness and mercy — to strive, to reach, to clench my fist around anything that seems excellent and desirable.
But for the follower of Jesus, goodness and mercy are our shadows, present wherever the Son is.
I knew God was asking me to stop chasing the goodness of health so I could discover the joy of watching goodness and mercy pursue me, and I cancelled all my doctors appointments.
Two weeks later, God led me to DNRS.
Not quite two years later, I’ve done 18 months of DNRS training and have seen glorious healing.
As I heal, I continue to be tempted to rush after anything that might accelerate my healing, and I have to think back to this day, two years ago, and remember to rest in the knowledge that God's goodness and mercy are always chasing me.
For me, this means asking God what He is doing in my life, waiting for His answer, and then joining Him in His work.
It often looks different than I think, but working with Him, according to His good purposes, always brings deep, wondrous joy.
Today, I'm thankful for a God who is advocate, Father, and friend, the source of all goodness, mercy, rest, and joy.
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